I left my mark….

9620040626_3a9f90afdd_ofew years back i was in one of the attacks and was very ill as many may remember, well called hospice and was sent to IHSS, ok gave it a try and never worked out, found out today, i can’t be ill n bedridden on a schedule. so beats me.

nothing new, no bucket list, lived a full life and dont wanna be in any home, that would devastate me alone.

it’s not only dealing with the HepC its the crippling arthritis, have them all
and migraines n psorisas on top of it.
so just being able to shop n eat will never fix the problem. Will always have the good days along with the bad, as a guy i knew from old days, walked into bar till day he died of Hep C … no bloat either, so i don’t believe the quacks I’ve seen.
Lived life way to full to go like that. I deserve peace.
I’m so broken in pieces, there is no healing this time, or bouncing back, I’ve lost a few “friends” along this path, can’t deal with truths and real life, so only support systems been online for years!

Hospice has the “Right to die with Dignity act” and from all I’ve read this would be the best way for all concerned.

no life here just surviving, and don’t wanna burdon any one. grannies pioneer spirit lives on, survival i know well… had the worst along with the best…. i’m done, been done for years but something came along and I tried many times, just not gonna work.
I do miss fresh food but oh well.


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